GOD used me as his instrument
I came from Hail King Jesus 1st day seminar about "God's Love" Life in the spirit seminar last night, after discussing we went to our own group, sharing your own testimony or sharing your experiences about Gods Love. I was shy and nervous to share so at first I decided to listen and observe the flow, then after Pastor Caloy shared his experience which touched me so much I decided to share mine I made it very simple.
" I became a christian when I was 8 years old, during that time of course i didn't know that there were different religions my family was very active back then we go to church every Sunday at New life Alabang. until we stopped for years we never got a chance to go back to church... but after the painful experience we had last 2011 to 2012 that really changed my life. my whole families life, even though until now 2013 we are still dealing with the issues and cases hearings etc. It was our time to seek God's LOVE. IT WAS his way to make us realize that he is THERE. My exact words were:
" Siguro po alam niyo ang pinagdaanan ng pamilya namin, pero naisip ko siguro misan kelangan makaramdam o makaranas ka ng napakasakit na bagay para maramdaman mo ang pagmamahal ng diyos." (While try to stop myself from crying)
After I said that, each member of our group started sharing and opening up what they really felt, they kept saying what I said that they realized alot of things with that simple words i said. They started sharing their life from breast cancer, to lack of self-confidence to financial to family marriage problems. Paulit uli ko naririnig ung " gaya nga ng sabi ni ynna" akala ko tapos na after nun... we were ready to end our seminar , there was this girl who suddenly felt like talking and sharing her feelings. She said it was her first time to go to HKJ. She started saying "sa totoo lang po, nasa point ako ng nabakababa at sensitive ng nararamdaman ko nasa punto na ako na magsusicide na ako s laki ng problema ko (while she was crying) she looked at me and asked me how old I was. I answered "21 po" she said "34 na ako, alam mo ang lakas lakas mong tao bata ka palang pero dahil sa sinabi mo nainspire ako sayo, dahil sa sinabi mo nag bago pananaw ko s pinagdadaanan ko" I looked at her with a smile, i didnt even know what to say, I wanted to cry because I felt sad for her but I wanted to smile because I made her stonger? my simple but POWERFUL WORDS changed her?.. that point on I couldnt stop looking at her... She was shaking she was crying and really sad. I wanted to hug her.
Ang dami kong narealize bigla, I wanted to transfer to the first row of our church.. But there was something thats stoping me to move, there was this feeling of someone controlling me to stay in that row. There was a purpose why I sat there sa dami dami ng upuan dun, there was a purpose bakit ako napunta s grupo na un... pati mismo pagsama ko doon, I was nervous to speak again, but while she was talking she said ayaw nya na sabihin o magsalita pa ngayon lang sya nanginig at nakaramdam ng ganung pagiging open s lahat ng tao then the last words I told her was, " Ate ngayon na ngayon mo kelngan pagkatiwalaan ang diyos, wag kang susuko andyan si God at andito kami para sayo" then she answered with a big smile. After that I felt so happy I felt so special I kept praying and kept thanking the Lord for using me to change someone's life, before I left our church I went to her to say bye then she ran with a big big smile she said "Payakap nga! " I hugged her tight and whispered to her "Ate wag kang susuko kaya mo yan".
I just want to share this wonderful experience to all of you... Its something im very proud of.. minsan di natin marerealize na may nagagawa tayong mabuti sa mga tao ng hindi natin sadya, minsan dahil sa mga pangyayaring di nain inaasahan pati ikaw mismo magbabago pananaw mo sa buhay... :)
